Current Music: White Walls by Macklemore & Ryan Lewis

GREETINGS! The last time I blog was on October 2013. Time flies so damn fast, everything is in fast pace - PRICE. Wherever you go - be it mamak stall, kopitiam, restaurants or any lunch breaks, you'll hear people talking about prices and also the implementation of GST in Malaysia by the government. Few days ago, I was just discussing about Malaysia's economy and issues with my dad and uncle. Normally, I don't or maybe I should say during my younger days I never really care about what's happening around me until I did my degree. Anyway, I will never voice out or discuss any issues regarding Malaysia in the internet unless my point-of-views are able to convince everyone, or else I will be in trouble. No joke, you wouldn't know what will happen the next minute, just like the case of the sex bloggers - Alvivi.

It's the 13th day of 2014, everyone has posted their 2014 resolutions and also their biggest moment from 2013. Unfortunately, I haven't post any of these 2 yet; and that is why I am here to blog. However, I am still trying to work on my blog layout and template, as well as the banner. I can't seem to find a suitable one.




Yes, 2013 has been a crazy year for me; the bad ones, the good ones, the awesome ones, the memorable ones. Well, the good thing is that I haven't been to the club for quite some time, and the urge to go to the club always went off, LAST MINUTE. Seriously, I don't know why. My lady told me I', not the "usual" Charmain anymore, as the "usual" Charmain" will never cancel clubbing plans on last minute. Ughhh, I guess I have already passed that stage? I don't know. But one thing that I'll never change, DRINK. I'm more into raves and pubs lately; so, am I on the next stage now? I guess it is, hahaha. After I pass this stage, what is my next stage then?

I have another bad news to announce *drums roll* I AM SINGLE! Yay and cheers for me, okay? Well, not too bad , still. Yesss, I might be a little uncomfortable whenever couples walk pass me holding hands or sharing an ice-cream or being lovey-dovey on the street. It reminds me a lot of memories as I used to do that too, LOL. I don't really talk about my relationship issues in my blog nor I share my relationship stories, therefore, I do not want to talk about it.




Attended quite a number of events last year - Guinness Arthur's Day, AVICII Asia tour and also birthday parties. I can't wait to blog and upload these photos, but I will save it for tomorrow. I don't know how long will I have to blog if I want to continue with my next post. I don't know where to begin as there are so manyt hings to blog about. Ahhh well.... we will just talk about it tomorrow.

Ohhhh, and another good news is, I've decided to revive my blog. I can't promise anything, or else it will just be another empty promise. Like how I promise to blog as much as I can, and also blog about my Penang post? Hahaha, all craps.

Peace out.

Greetings lovelings! I am very sorry that I haven't been updating my blog since my last Penang post. Class just started and I don't really like it, except for Mr Andrew's class. I have 2 writing task and a few assignments waiting ahead of me, that is why I am busy for the past few days. Indeed, the assignments that were assigned by Mr Andrew is less stressful than the other subjects. That is because the assignments are self assessments, which means no theories (I mean there are less theories) and more of a personal life experiences :) I like it very much, as I get to express and spill all my thoughts out that I could not describe it to anyone else with words.


I, finally realized that my life is not just about study, study, more study, work, competition and wealth. Most of us almost forgot who we really are, as well as forgetting our natural ability as we grow. Why? Because of our mindset, the environment that we grow up in, and the people who influence us. I want to thank Mr Andrew for what he said. The things that he said did really slapped me on my face, and it made me realized and believed things that I don't.

Apart from that, I'm feeling all melancholy for the past whole week, even now. I don't know why. It happens all the time (Well, this does not mean I'm emo. Emo and melancholy are 2 different verbs.) and  whenever it happens, I'll try watching movies that makes me cry. But this time, I choose to read The Great Gatsby, written by F.Scott.Fitzgerald. I haven't watch the movie yet but some of my friends said it was great; some said it was boring. To me, I think that, the remake of Great Gatsby movie is just nice,it is like a short version of The Great Gatsby novel (Why, of course they are!). I was playing the soundtracks- Over The Love by Florence + The Machine & Young and Beautiful by Lana Del Rey while reading it this evening. It really makes me want to cry. Guess I've been listening too much of the soundtracks and also songs from Lana Del Rey, and that is why I'm feeling all melancholy. Yes, Lana Del Rey's songs are sad and emotional.

Anyway, I will try to work on my Penang post as much as I can. Right now, I've got to get back to my work.

Have you ever thought of what would your life be in 10 years time? or What would your life be like, without any goals and plans? Well, I never really thought of it cause I had this attitude where I always told myself, "Enjoy now, think later." OR " Life's too young to think about the future now". It was because I was too dwell in love and all I thought was, "who knows I'm gonna end up together with the guy I'm dating" OR " Guess, we can stay long together". I thought I can rely on my boyfriend, as I will expect him to plan everything. (For fuck's sake, we are not even married yet, what the hell was I thinking? ughh) I know I sound stupid when I said this, and I did slapped myself at times.

I was so carefree, until something came and hit me so hard - my very first heartbreak. I remembered the whole situation was so fucking pathetic and I was being treated like a dumb fuck. I can't talk to my mum about it, nor my dad .I felt so terrible as it was like someone who you trust and love the most stabbed you in your heart. 3 weeks later, my friends told me that Monsieur X got into another relationship. They said she is fucking rich, all branded stuffs from head to toe ( Imagine that...) They said they had no intentions for saying these things. At some point, I thought that they were actually indirectly comparing me to her. However, I told myself it's okay that I'm not a rich KL girl, I'm just a girl from a small city. I can't afford branded stuffs from head to toe. But, I will study hard and work hard and earn a title and position for myself in the future. I'm doing all this because I want to prove it to those fuckers who once look down on me just because I came from a small city. I never once blame him for what he did, but I blame myself. And so I thought it could be my problem (1) I'm not rich (2) I'm not pretty enough (3) No one likes a girl who come from a Kampung town (That's what my KL friends think about Seremban)

All my hard works were paid off. I'm very happy for the grades I scored for my mid term. Aiming for first-class honors is not easy, it requires double or triple the efforts and hard works. You know, how people always tell me that results I got doesn't really matters. But for me, it is important  after I graduate as I need it in order to apply for jobs. Whether or not they are hiring me, it will all based on my results. This is the FACT that you can't deny. Welcome to the real world bitches! You can ask 10 lecturers, and 9 of them will tell you the same thing. If results are not important, then what the company based on when they hire fresh grads? Experience? NO, that's bullshit. How can they have experience when fresh graduates first step into the society? Unless, some of them went for internships then that's a different story.

Speaking of the reality, I'm able to see who are my true friends, and who is not after what happened last year. How funny are those who claimed that they are your "heng mui", "heng dai" or "true brothers" , but they are just people who being nice to you when they are around and once they turn their back, they spread negative things about you.

And this is for the girls! Never ever rely on your boyfriend, no matter how rich or how filthy rich they are as no one can tell you how long both of you can stay together, or how far can both of you go through. Do plan your future and goals cause you might need it one day. Do read my friend's blog, Rae Roberta's blog then you will know the reason why. She is very inspiring as she posts interesting stories :)

Peace out.

"What are you studying now?", "Oh, so what you want to be?", "Why you study this course?", "Cool! It's a tough course but get to work with big financial company"

Just had a very interesting conversation with my friend.

Current Music: Time by Hans Zimmer

How I always wish that I could attend a real ANTI-VALENTINE'S party. My friends said I'm an idiot who likes to attend weird parties.

"WHO GOES TO ANTI-VALENTINE'S PARTY?"

 Unfortunately, I do. 

Back then, when I was doing my A-levels in college, me and my girls always wanted to organize an anti-valentine's party. We even came out with hell lot of weird ideas. Well, that was like 3 years ago.
Anyway, I did celebrate Valentine's. No surprises, but received pink roses and having Valentine's dinner with Aedan :)

Current Music: If I lose myself (Remix) by Alesso